Idk

My mind is toxic. It can be sometimes. I always feel like a loser. A failure. Sometimes I'm too tired I cried. I feel like I'm never going to be enough for my parents even myself. They are getting older and I feel like I don't do much for them instead they'd die for me. I feel like, I don't know where my life is going. I can't see myself in five years. I used to laugh a lot when I was younger. Too dumb to realize about life, responsibility. I would just laugh out loud and having a lot of fun. But as I grew older, all I do now is crying, worrying, feeling sucks. Wish I could turn back time and slap the younger me and I would fix my life, I swear. I feel like no one understand what I'm feeling. People say just be positive but my mind is ruining me. 

Wish I have someone who actually listen to my silence.

Dear God, save me from myself.